IRS

很多人都问我IRS是？
我梦回了她。。。
很奇怪的梦，
{当时我在开车，看到一个女生在等车，我看我的时钟是半夜3 - 4点，会有共车吗？想了想，就好心问她要载她一程吗？可惜她拒绝了，但她送了我一束花。。。我把它放在客厅，几日后，我看到花开时榭了，于是我在同一个的时间同一个地点等待她，终于等到她了，她一样拒绝了我，但这一次是带着微笑，和说她的名是IRIS}
我扣了I变IRS永记着。。。希望有一天真的意会她。。。

home

回家了。。。都有一个怀家的日子，晚上时，当家人都睡了，剩我一个人在客厅对着电脑。。。
只听到风扇和外面的虫儿，真的很安静。。。
不像在SK。。。三根半夜都是听到炸歌，打机。。。
平时抽太多的我。。。都是在家里一直吃一直吃，勉戒烟和酒。。。真的很辛苦，回家的第二天没吸到，第三天感觉肺干干，眼睛红肿，唯一我可以忍受的到就找东西吃。。。
老母看到我这个样子。。。很像白粉仔，劝了又劝，我还是不听。。。
我不怕以后我会后悔，是怕家人伤心。。。都式过了很多方法，可是还是不行。。。
我只劝朋友们，最好的方法就是没抽过的人最好不要动。。。

breaker

考试期，突然想到一些事，让我失控，
scream + aura = breaker,
炸了地上一下，地裂开了，（想象中。。。）
其实我的右手很痛。。。现在反而我的双手都伤了，变成伤兵一个，
还好，可以做日常动作，不明白，我都会失控。。。
考试的压力果然不可看小，平时都可以玩的很夜，都和一帮破该说，
睡觉是什么？人其实是不用睡得，睡觉只是一个幻觉而已！
但考试期，反而我睡得比较多。。。是很多。。。 -_-
楼下外面，我的housemate养了几只小猫，平时反对党的我，这几天都跟它们玩，
还帮它们安了名字，小黑，小白，和小花。。。。。。。。。。。。

我竟然无聊到逃避考试的现实！！
痛苦的事，只说痛苦，不说为什么，可能这是男人心吧，
不把它说出来，埋藏到一个角落，因为。。。
就算说了出来都不能解决。。。只能愿酒和写这里的陪伴。。。
就算很痛苦也好，没钱吃饭也好，问题多多也好，人还是要过着明天。。。
（男人死的比较快可能是这个原因吧 -_-）

心不易着控

愚蠢信息，默默盼望，
眠后期待，恶指喝醉，
着想已稳，心意难控，
不治心伤，表外冲动，
一期七日，守稳回应，
七年长期，永不放弃，
后结现在，实在后悔，
心事藏埋，无法忍受，
笔下开脱，让我松口，
就那一下，挑错报应，报应。。。

回忆日记

还记得星期日时，和朋友打球，不小心购到脚，察地板...
整个左手哲到，不能动，一动我的手臂就很痛，
很不方便？
吃饭用右手，写字有右手，驾车一只手就好！
（转大弯就要左手迁就下了，可是还是很危险 -_-）
没问题!

可是, 当晚上时, 突然我的右背很痒...

我的左手哲不过去!!
这才是真正的痛苦...
这一点让我明白互相帮忙的意义... 左右拼合唯一, 双双对对, 天下无双 -_-
很多时刻, 都不能一个人解决, 还是要有合作的精神, 不可放弃, 一个放弃 = 全部放弃,

到最后, 我还要背靠着墙壁察来解决我的问题... -_-

他和她

平果平果我爱吃，
你一个，我一个，
理想理想在心灵，
靠嘴边，取醉意，
任性任性属于她，
心地堡，海底针，
固执固执拖累他，
左一九，右一迷，
期望希望的等待，
长失言，举示意，
渴望失望五分钟,
没耐心，问奈何，
希望代表,
一万酒。。。

吃

午餐，突然的很想吃KFC, 可是housemate都不在。。。
怎么办，没人陪我去，可是又要吃啊，
不是我怕一个人出去，-_- 而是留了一个不好的深刻。。。

也不是那种被什么什么的啦。。。-_-!!
在于melaka的几年前，我都是一个人吃饭的，都没什么朋友，
虽然一个人吃饭看起来很有型，可是必不的以才。。。
当我在于那时，看到的是其他的家人，朋友们，大家都坐在一起，
我的内心是孤单和空虚。。。
让我来告诉你，一个人吃饭不是怕忘记带钱包，最怕是被认识的人看到，
就有一次，但我一个人静静的吃饭时，被一班认识的人看到，
其中一个还带着温馨的口音问我“Jonathan。。。怎么一个人吃饭啊。。。？过来和我们一起吃啦。。。” （Jackie！我会记住你的!! -_-）
那一种带着含泪的声音是谁都挺挡不了的，我看着我正在吃的叉烧饭，说没关系我吃着了。。。
那一时刻，我的眼泪差点流出来。。。岂有此理，会有人这样问的吗？？摆明是扮可怜我哜！(可能他真的关心我吧-_-)男人泪是不会那么容易流的, 亏亏只是一个吃饭而已!!
就是那一次后, 我都是找他们一起吃饭了 -_- 。。。

最后, 我还是一个人吃KFC。。。-_-

内痛

这一起来，才知道我只睡了三个小时。。。 心酸酸的，也痛得很，好一片玻璃割如一样。。。
算了，刷刷牙，洗洗脸吧。。。当我迷迷雾雾时，不小心干到脚。。。很痛,
但以去除了我的内痛。。。
想想。。。为何呢？才回想七年前的一个解问，
今后，我搬了出来问；她问我＂你喜欢我什么？＂我着答道＂因为你很平，很可爱啊，我很喜欢。。。＂
每一个的朋友都答道，这是不对的！因为这是女生的尊严，她们会生气的。。。
可是我喜欢喔，后来每个破该都放弃了，没关系，可是他们哲回了我一句，＂你这个金鱼佬！只喜欢loli小妹妹的给我滚开。。。变态！＂
喜欢平的是罪吗？-_-。。。
不过，他们也答得对。。。不然我那一时就不会这样伤心了。。。果然是病从口出。。。

早晨

啊！是早晨啊！看看我的时钟, 是 7.30 AM耶! 原来早上的天气是多么的清醒, 多么的完美, 人家说吸取vitamin D在于早晨是对的, 因为这时的太阳不是很猛.
望着蓝蓝的天空, 吸吸新鲜的空气, 听听美妙的鸟儿声, 间至于让人赞不完.
这时我的housemate约我吃点心, 早晨塔培着点心也是人生中享受! 好!
到那, 我们点了菜, 慈祥的aunty也说"哇! 很久没有看到像你们这些年轻人这么早起身出来吃早餐了!"
我也答道"不是啦aunty... 我们还没睡的..." ...... -_-!!

Dark and Light

which 1 I will choose? sure the light side, but me, never c the sun long time ago...
I miss the morning smell, the view, always wanted to fishing on the early morning,
the lake is just behind my house, but i never fishing on it...
since my life is fully 360 degree, I always wait for the meteor with my time,
but in KL? hope the moon is pure of white then only wish to watch meteor just like every people say.
night stalker them always call me -_-but i want to be a light....
nv treasure the best beside me, always choose the thing by my heart... is the dark side attitude...

固执。。。

平时，吃饭出去玩，我都会说“随便啦，你们开兴就好。。。”
今天，用了一个小时才买到酒。。。
才知道，我找了整条街，就是要买到它。。。
原来我也是一个很固执的人，要的就是要到，
都不理天给的注定，不理他人的感想，
永不放弃也是我的愿折，
可是我不想要这些，
因为这样会让我更痛苦。。。

block

light me, copy me, consume me, info me, reply me, operating me

I found that all the people are same, when i was kid, i feel pity for the beggar, now i just passby like every body else...
what u feel about 1 people is right, chance, opportunity, luck but motivation is need it; psychology factor. The only thing i can't figure out is my heart, like people always say, u can't solve u thinking problem by ur own.
everytime the people scold or gossip must think about their self, coz u r the same.

talk only can make this world feel more noisy, talk only make u feel better, talk only can make the situation more complex.
understanding is bigger success in every life.
i cant see the moon and star but only stare on my ceiling fan...
its a nightmare from tis moment...

明白。。。

星期六，别让我伤心，不要下雨，让我出去散散心。。。
昨日一杯酒，换我一场恶梦，陪我单身七年后。。。
为什么看到她第一眼，没感觉，现在懂得。。。
23年不成，今天我第一次有着感觉。。。
朋友都不成，拿起我的吉他，原来才是我的最爱。。。

Fake Hero

This hero actually is make by 3D, a 3D character. It remind me prince of persia 4 styles.


















weekly history
今天, 我的housemate都到pc fair了, 感觉很无聊, 很空虚, 一人上网上网解闷. 不小心开到她的blog, 但然一定看看她的小blog都写些什么. 后来才发现... 她有了爱人... 虽然我和她不认识, 可是她那笑容我是很难忘掉... 我是第一次看到一个女生连走路都会自笑, 给人一个开朗的感觉...
那一时刻, 我的心情更是空虚... 还想着要任识人先后步走步... 后来看到她和她的爱人和照的那一张, 看到她开心得样子, 我觉得我这个垃圾就应该好好在家里当垃圾, 别破坏她的那最美笑容...
就这样的伤心时刻, 原本改成早睡的我, 改回之前的我...
啊... 写华文好辛苦... 看来我还是多写华文是好...

Christmas girl

the picture I was re-color it into 2 D form.

weekly history
thats a word, i cant see, when u stand in front,
only few answer i can giv it away,
i feel nothing, standing like dummy, when u touch me,
feeling only appear out of square,
cant get attraction, cant get cold, when u say though word,
i will reply, sorry im just a npc across my heart...

turn back time to 18 March week 7 - ending

Today lecture give a question about Random Image association:














Is a kitty and question is use this image to make a warning sign to keep people away from the danger land within atom boom while long time non active, ok this is long...

At first I navigated about the kitty:

• Although kitty is Cute but it born to hunt and trap enemy or we call "food".
• Human respond in this century, because the land is free with toxic it wont have any life on that, so human will think the place is empty and will automatic not to step in.
• some mean like the water pipe, if that water pipe won't grow grass inside mean that water is danger to drink.
• Word Cute = empty; trap = danger

so in the end i draw a picture like this

turn back time to 11 March week 6

Lecturer : Choose 3 pairs of number from (00 until 99)
Jonathan : 23, 07, 86

Lecturer : Mix up those word
Jonathan : Lighting Tree, Fly Wind, Oil Mountain

Lecturer : Create a sentence using the two random words
Jonathan : ... shit

1. I build a lighting as my Christmas tree.
2. That fly flew like a wind.
3. add on oil (加油 in Chinese mean put more energy into) to climb the mountain.

Lecturer : Draw it down with you sentence
Jonathan :








Lighting Tree






Fly Wind





Oil Mountain
Lecturer : Create a new word by combining the two words together
Jonathan : Lightningtree, Flywind, Oilmountain

Lecturer : Now, create and illustrate the image of your word
Jonathan : oo, what? wait... Are you serious!??





Lightningtree (three)








Flywind







Oilmountain (one of a name for ice kacang)
Jonathan : this is crazy... but fun ;P

Conclusion
This week I learning about Juxtaposition, mean two objects or texts that oppose one another. The exercise that lecturer given so that you can think fast and be more creative, everything is possible if you got enough of thinking!

weekly history
期望〉希望〉渴望〉失望 in English its mean expectation> hope> desperate> disappointed, > mean become. You see every Chinese word above got 望 connection each another, its mean is the same topic a person having it. Example he or she apply for a job their like of, but the end is disappointed, I mean hey, this is life and I will congratulation for them cause you can thinking about it and feel it, mean you normal and live as a human. One part you need to notice is be patient always... make it those sentence more longer and more harder, in the end it will be good result :) or maybe bad but with you patient and good think it will be good too, haha

turn back time to 4 March week 5

Random image association
while the logo we figure out is by a pen,
pen mean every student best friend,
but FCM not only pen is our best friend but included the pen family; pencil,
so inside our logo v sketch a pencil inside and some of effect to state the FCM's design.

metaphor: we compared FCM life style metaphorically with with things that give energy boost, food for the brain,and several other things that suggests that "a taste of FCM, is a step in the right direction.

Juxtaposition: we paired FCM listyle with many situations that students face on a daily basis this helped us see which things are not compatible with our vision and which ones really represent the concept of "a taste of fcm. The statement mean that the FCM student dairly is always start with pencil but the energy play a very important role.

turn back time to 25 Feb week 4

For this week, the lecturer teach me about the mind mapping, it enhance both sides of human brain and widely used in taking notes, research or generation new idea, is the map that draw it on paper and relation each one of other example day -> weather -> rain -> sad feeling -> cry.
That's 2 mind mapping:
1. Logical Mind Map; is directly connected to Stereotype, mean it need logic, and just cant simple add in the idea which is not suitable.
2.Association Mind Map; able to generate random words and show the idea in your mind whether is right or wrong, or even it got connecting with the topic or not.

weekly history
I woke up as like I usually, then my mood is down, so I open a song to relax myself. I notice that I open a sad love song, then I go check up my facebook (www.facebook.com), to check what happen to my friend today. Then I on my friend's Ex girlfriend page, them just breakup a few week ago, then i notice that from that few week she was explore her sad feeling inside her facebook wall. With the sad song and that situation, my mood going more even down... your see that's is some connection between life and brainstorming, if you know how to explore you life experiement to a creativity idea, its easy to connect and creative. Just sitting there and think wont help you to come out with the news idea, you must go out and explore or research with you true friend, the google. By the way, hope she getting better after this sadness occurs.

turn back time to 18 Feb week 3

Novelty, Creativity, Innovation and Invention; by this week lecturer told me how to created a new idea list and publish it, the picture I upload it is a part of exercise that lecturer had given. This assignment is interview my partner and draw a personality imagination with each other, and my partner is a cute girl. Now as you can see she draw me a guy is fishing which the fish is inside the fish jar, mean my personality is patient, free and non-talkative, but the ridiculous part is that guy is fishing in fish jar! That's make sense, I think she though me is a guy that's always blur and make something "special" as doing awfulness works.

Outcast
Who are them?!! Yes! is Google Duo, Larry Page and Sergey Brin with their world's largest internet search engine, Google. For me, Google is my friend, I cant live without it of course the internet included, all the information, question and joy is magnification deeper over per day by day, friendly, buddy and a hug smile! but... I was finding many of the complain searching problem and advertisement's money sucker inside their own glory creation, is that's a glory one always betray their own master? or Google is no enough strong? however, Google is a part of my life that cant have without it...

Conclusion
What I learn this week is how to make an idea behind a stage while just looking at it, to convert the information to many kind of command and creativity idea, and again must similar with the topic and problem.

weekly history
I was mention that I was partner with a girl with the activity exercise inside the class, will I was notice her before, I meet her when she eating alone, a basketball player and ride a heavy motorcycle, kind of Tomboy she are, but I think she kind of cute, caurse she a girl? NO! she cute and friendly and joy happily with her friend too, I'm sure about it, I don't care what she like or a guys thing she want, for me don't care anybody think and 38 in talking topic and just live with your own life is a part of great happily ever after. Same as the idea your publish, just go ON and don't be bashful!

turn back time to 11 Feb week 2

This week.. armm is that week, the lecture teaching about how to make an idea, the PROBLEM come first then CONFLICT, FORMULATION, FIRST STAGE IDEAS. Just like writing a movie scripting, ok example Final Destination everything is set up and how the hero first solve the problem. All you need to make it more interest is try to make or meet something not just easy, and consequence will effect everything in the end. Just turn the idea around and around make it more difficult. Just remember one thing before your turn and turn, must relation with each of the idea.

weekly history
I just go down to buy some staff, I meet a girl that my housemate always tell me how he like her, tell me that always wanted to meet the girl blah blah blah, ok this is my 3rd time that I ask for my that housemate to company me but he busy, and BUT I meet the girl he like WITH this 3rd time. The idea you make and publish, everything you create in your mind it won't just happen everyday, like something will against it. It's like a love drama to me, maybe in the end I fall in love with that girl then my turn to against this chances and then... well make a great story of your own, I don't want to talk about it.

turn back time to 3 Feb week 1

My first post, is a research for my assignment creative study. First, i don't know why me must take this course, it's like useless to me, for me finding a creative point is not just sit at home and the idea won't come out just stare on my fan spin.
I was a novel writer, many people asking me where the idea come from or advise me read more story novel; BOOK, all I can reply back is from chit chat with my friend, and I don't read any book because it only destroying forest habitation, nan just joking, just i don't like copy any idea from any sources that's why me always keep my mind fresh with a new world and new idea.
After few week I taking this course, the thing that can make me feel interesting is not just this course... is the way of how lecturer teaching, my lecturer is the one of creative person i meet, the way he teach can make the whole class from zoo become hall, you know why? The word creative he use is not just think but use it with correct situation, well maybe this one is I'm expectation for.

weekly history
Just that remind me when i was hanging with my friend suddenly got a strange person smiling though to me and say do you still remember me? I was really forgot about him, what in my mind is create a new idea and new story, forgot the pass. Now caution, if you have this situation like me mean you are "dreaming" and become a creativity person! haha ok I just crap, I got short memory, how can I remember a thing or person that long time ago? and how i remember this weekly history and write it here? nan just crap...